justme

kind words, spare me some?

2012-02-02T00:40:00.002+08:00

wah, why do you look so tired

i have been hearing this a lot

worn-out, almost completely. so if you cannot give me kind words, get out of my life.

and i forgot about audrey hepburn.

so did they.

time will tell

2012-01-30T00:33:00.003+08:00

totally in a drama mode. although the ending is completely not my type (and i knew it right from the start), i watched the entire show, 35 episodes. but no regrets, definitely worth it. self-discovery: i can take very very very depressing endings.

so yes. cny! lost money, heart pain! what to do. 'sunk cost' alr :( one of the best things that happened was prolly that i met up with a really old friend after a few years. it was nice, knowing that he's happy and has great plans for the future. there were a few surprising but interesting changes. he actually said he liked exotic girls, not Singaporean girls. got me laughing hard. never expected that to be coming from him. sometimes, it's funny how time can change somebody completely. or maybe i didn't know him well to begin with haha. wonder what we were doing back then. on hindsight, the experience was worth the time. it told me what i really couldn't stand.

fyp now.. getting tired. and hungry. called ada to chit-chat a while ago. two sick little girls. i have to recover soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2012-01-25T02:45:00.002+08:00

cny has been less exciting, but i've been learning. the cny goodie and late nights have been taking a toll on me. the time difference has not been exactly working for me. and yes, body is slowly losing to it. given that paris and singapore has a time difference of 8 hours, people there reply emails when we're supposed to be sleeping and i stay up to look out for replies cause they tend to need responses asap. i suppose it's only natural since prices of air tickets seem to be sky-rocketing! not complaining lah cause they have done a lot for us alr.. just that staying up waiting for replies is not erm what i want to do. it's 3am alr!!!!!! meeting at 10am tmr haha. half more hr and i'm off to bed. promise myself!

2012-01-22T02:27:00.003+08:00

cannot do without them. they are the only ones that come to mind in times of trouble. they not only provide solution, but also empathise and let me feel better. thank you :) i love y'all a lot arh!!!

2012-01-21T01:16:00.000+08:00

a few more times of losing patience, the end is near

2012-01-16T20:17:00.002+08:00

have not received the invoice for the dress i ordered online!!!! this is either because

1. the admin is still in the midst of clearing emails and have not seen mine yet

2. the dress has been SOLD OUT :(

there're still a few more collections. thou shall be picky no more! ANYTHING WILL DO.

there are moments where i miss you a lot a lot a lot a lot so much that id imagine myself rushing for trains, taking train rides and going for tours together. there are also moments where it feels like i've forgot about you. tell me more about myself please haha.

HH, WHEN U WANT LAUNCH YOUR COLLECTION? :(

My pre-CNY pre-Paris pre-exchange syndromeS

2012-01-16T01:32:00.002+08:00

FINALLY. bought something new to wear on the first day of chinese new year. was looking at dress A before but bought dress B instead. so, decided on dress B on impulse when i was hit hard by the realisation that cny is a just a mere week away. hope i'll be happy with the dress. that's prolly going to be the only piece of clothing i'm getting for cny. not because i don't want to buy, but because i just can't seem to see something i REALLY like.. of course, when i say clothing, shoes not inclusive! have been eyeing this pair of shoes from love,bonito for the llloonnngggeeesssttt time and FINALLY it is re-stocked! tell me how awesome this is. i know, awesome max arh! lol. but of course, fickle ass always, i have not bought it out. will go walk walk see see for the last time tmr after accompanying my mum to the bank. if i can't find anything more decent and pretty than that, I'M BUYING THAT.

exchange has pretty much been decided. at this point in time, i can't wait to leave this place, to somewhere far far away where no one knows me. better, if i'm all alone. to quote Barney Stinson, CHALLENGE ACCEPTED. and i'm not going to put ANY effort into it, trust me.

first day of school!

2012-01-09T23:20:00.004+08:00

went to school for instep talk. ended up in bugis with shumin! hope she's happy with her buy :)

exchange has been on my mind lately.things that i don't want to share cause it'd make me look weak. haha.

this sem is slowly taking shape, with fyp possibly filling every single night i have. having reservations about moving into hall actually. skipping meals, insomnia, sleeping late. but i guess with fyp, it's inevitable lah. and with kw not around, it doesn't help. suckitupsuckitupsuckitup!

the person on exchange and the person not on exchange. which is actually more difficult to bear? is it worth it to swap roles? sacrifices.

WEAK

2012

2012-01-07T22:36:00.019+08:00

A BRAND NEW YEAR, A BRAND NEW START!

2012 began with my cousin's wedding!

HAHAHA

off to groom's place!

chinese custom 101: split the egg into halves with chopsticks

pretty bride :)

ah gong, ah po, the couple, uncle, auntie and cousin

the sistarrrrs

the photographer wanted something candid! i had a different definition from the rest haha

jorene and joanne

joanne and catherine

kalen and joanne

chengsan, yourstruly, felicia

(this is such a precious photo!)

vivien

some candid shots :) :

*stares at edwin*

he was perspiring like crazy!

<3 traditional chinese costumes!

solemnization

my fav again!

(i know background sucks, but love their smiles :) )

HAPPILY MARRIED! :D

absolutely love attending weddings. i want to get married! hahaha. lamos will go, "ya ya, there she goes again." it's a beautiful affair, though very expensive (i mean VERY expensive).

so after the wedding, i have been wasting my life away. 2 more days to a new semester. too old to feel excited about school alr haha.

2011-07-29T23:53:00.000+08:00

i had a weird dream 2 days ago! dreamt that he decided to come back. before i could make a decision, i woke up. wonder what i would have done in my dream.

today's the last day of internship! didnt feel very happy. it felt like any other day. had an early lunch at 1130! then we went for coffee/hot chocolate/ice-cream. awesome max. the group of us happily thought we could go back early BUT the HR department was so mean. they only let us go at 5plus :( last day really didnt have ANYTHING to do might as well let us off early like what the big4 did!

then was intern outing. planned to go jogging during evening, but after the outing, i realised i have done enough work-out already haha. company matters a lot :)

now that internship has officially ended, it's time to focus on school. some class starts next week, have got FYP meeting, FYP course, IIC meeting, pulau ubin cycling trip (since overseas trip is off), and also got to move into hall. busy! and all i ever want is to be able to wake up late. seems like it's not possible anymore haha. all the way, theresa! :)

2011-07-19T01:04:00.000+08:00

let me tell you what's so good about thinking about life!

YOU GET YOURSELF PREPARED! I was worried for myself before the consultation with the neurologist last week. Honestly, I had plans as to what to do if anything bad were to come out of it. See, I got myself prepared, although emo-ism kicked in (quite a bit for a number of days). And someone forgot I was going for a consultation, how not to feel sad :( haha.

IT MAKES YOU HAPPY! Who says think about life=getting emo! So wrong! Can think about happy stuff too and make yourself super happy :D

IT TAKES UP YOUR TIME! Nothing to do on a lazy sunday afternoon, THINK ABOUT LIFE!

So, I will continue to think about life! But too tired to think about life now.. Time for bed! think about life in my dreams :)

2011-07-03T16:47:00.000+08:00

and so it all started. i am writing this, feeling sad for myself. i am more certain now that there is absolutely NO ONE i can trust. self-reliance and to take care of myself to keep myself alive.

2011-06-17T01:02:00.000+08:00

i am so sad i think i can die now.

2011-06-16T13:04:00.000+08:00

you're right, i cannot be bothered.

2011-06-07T21:44:00.001+08:00

there're still photos from my bday celebration that i've yet to post. too lazy. and prolly no one would be interested to see them, so NO POINT. shall not post. save me from the trouble haha :D

this feeling of being sick is quite terrible. all i do is sleep. will be returning to the workplace tmr. not exactly looking forward to it, but well what to do? suck thumb.

sometimes, you think you've understood when in fact, you're not even half way through. how sad.

2011-05-30T23:12:00.000+08:00

short but awesome time with friends, happiness :)

there's this chinese saying that talks about how you have accumulated good deeds in your previous life to be so blessed in this life. i must have been an extremely kind soul in my previous life.

presents hardly ever touched me, it has always been the effort. it's easier to ask somebody for money, trust me.

effort is priceless. so yes, i'm greedy because i only like the priceless.

because with you around, i always feel happy and at ease, thank you for everything, my dear friends :) :) :) i always believe that the beauty of every relationship, be it friendship or kinship, etc, is the ability to read each others' minds. sometimes, when too much is said, the relationship becomes meaningless.

when some actions or words hurt you, keep it to yourself. no point mentioning to anybody, it only aggravates the situation. words are sometimes, the worse form of communication, isn't it?

2011-05-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

there are many things in this world that are not worth holding on to. Let them go, you'll lead a happier life.

2011-05-23T22:04:00.000+08:00

really not an easy job. first day into it, i alr hav blisters over my feet, and my right shoulder hurts when i raise my right hand. tired beyond words. can barely keep my eyes open. still went to ntuc to get my favourite snackss just now. shall bring them to office tmr. but i'm glad the working environment's not too stressful. 49 more days to go :) theresa, jiayou!

and my head was nice enough to treat us pitiful interns to coffee bean. hen wen xing :)

2011-05-17T22:58:00.001+08:00

http://meandmydiary.livejournal.com/

unproductive, but happy day.

was supposed to wake up at 830 but erm i dont know what happened, i let myself sleep till 11 0.0

so had brunch and did some studying. grandma called to say she's in singapore. came and visited us, love to have her around :) then read my notes again. was a little upset cause my memory seemed to be failing on me. couldnt remember what i've studies. so ya dinner and read notes. then, the neighbour staying upstairs had to do something. they poured water down and wet the compressor. parents' room floor was wet. my father got upset. and so, i went to do some detective work! hard to describe the process so i so myself a favour and skip this part. all in all, it took about an hour. then, it was 9pm! and i HAD to watch that show. i think it's really not bad! so yes, i'm guessing it'll be a late night today. hope my brain can help me little. the pinky and the brain the pinky and the brain brain brain brain brain. i still like spongebob! random HAHA. au revoir!

2011-05-16T22:52:00.001+08:00

time will tell, i cannot agree more to this saying.

when i looked back, i wondered what was going through my puny brain then. and yes, i do miss those days. where has all the laughter gone? what has all the concern gone? i'm guessing it happens to the majority, and i'm perfectly fine with going through it. just that at times, i do hope to be part of the minority haha. the impatience sets in, reminding me of the past. and it is this impatience that worries me because there's absolutely NOTHING i can do about it. and idk, maybe it's a lack of confidence that leads me to blaming myself for it.

:)

2011-05-15T18:45:00.000+08:00

my sincere apologies.

2011-05-15T00:22:00.000+08:00

credits to tumblr. sorry too lazy to cite sources.

2011-05-12T13:49:00.000+08:00

LIFEGUARDS

?

2011-05-09T21:13:00.000+08:00

as i was talking to sm today, we talked about days when we didnt quite have to worry about about results until university. and both of us could still remember our teachers saying things like university would be a breather, no kick! hut erm i would like to strongly disagree to that statement.

my grades r bad. and please trust me on that. i reflect and ask myself, what have i done wrong? to my horror, i have no answer.

your average is my challenge.

anyw, it's mummy's birthday today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! lovesssss :D cake was awesome! gonna treat myself to oreo-cheesecake tomorrow. dont deserve it but WHO CARES!

2011-05-04T17:44:00.000+08:00

exams! this is the period when everybody (almost?) disappears! horrible period when you sit in that chair the entire day with your notes, books, etc. the time when most of us are most hardworking too i suppose.

and pyp are OMG. i was so demoralised by the first question in most papers i lost all motivation to finish them. i WELCOME my very first paper on saturday (worried!)/ 2nd and 3rd paper on monday (FREAKED OUT!) and omg. accounting and astro HOW. faints. got so worried and stressed out i had to stop work and de-stress with one hr of tv. i think this happens to me whenever i feel stressed-out. body has low stress tolerance level? haha. alrighty. back to ab213. study hard everyone! :)

2011-04-29T03:15:00.000+08:00

yes, talk is cheap!

you think singapore is so self-sufficient that we can just increase wages of singaporeans by focusing on increasing wages and not growing GDP? taxes = govt revenue! this is a FACT, not sth that is debatable. 0.4 million is too little, then what amount is right? without the money, how can policies be implemented? your scholarship money how? school fees how? all these talk about improving the lives of singaporeans.. criticisms are only constructive when accompanied by solutions. it's not like there're completely no opposing voices in the parliament, is it?

politics ar politics.. fierce!

2011-04-28T01:51:00.000+08:00

i just got stunned. this has been a very devastating week, a little too much to bear. how could you be so selfish? value-added on what i have. m i your stepping stone? from today onwards, i will stay away from you!!!!!!!!!!!! *shivers*

and i'm beginning to appreciate time spent with myself. i think i lost it but luckily it came back to me. moments that r impt n that i really enjoy. so that i can think about life.

trust no one, but yourself.

2011-04-27T00:07:00.000+08:00

Go the extra mile for your friend today.

And Adidas is perhaps 99% right. Therefore, no one faces any real external constraint. The only constraint would be, selfishness, pure selfishness. Continue doing that, expect loses to increase exponentially.

I would have, would you have?

2011-04-23T20:30:00.000+08:00

although you make me fat, i love you

2011-04-19T22:44:00.001+08:00

2011-04-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

i am absolutely disgusted by the practicality and selfishness of some people. These people are the culprits for a ugly society. something's wrong with their synapses or neurons or chemicals or transmissions that they cannot think like a proper being. they are so absorbed with thinking about themselves such that they create the most convenience for themselves and the most inconvenience for others. yes, i have wonderful cousins of whom i believe i will be speaking to very soon. simply cant wait to see how well they can defend and speak for themselves. i wish you all, the best of luck because your little cousie here is going to be oh-no-so-friendly. i will ROAR like a lion with my sweet little voice.

2011-04-11T22:23:00.000+08:00

astro is a disaster i dont know what to do bout my grades anymore but thank buddha i know what i have to do now

2011-04-11T01:26:00.000+08:00

let me talk about my proudest moment of the last week.

I LEARNT HOW TO USE A LIGHTER!

yes,you heard me right! credits to mr tommy teoh xue qian (he wants to be called tommy-.-)

for the past 20 years of my life, i have been using match sticks. so what happens when i have to light something up?

step1) i find a corner where i feel is the most 'wind-less'

step 2) i take out my handy-dandy, match sticks!

step3) start lighting! xD

usually, i never succeed in lighting up candles. when we had to burn incense paper, my task was never to light up candles hahaha.

so, i borrowed xue qian's lighter. i play with it when i'm free. the sense of achievement is AMAZING :) you should totally try it!

2011-04-10T01:32:00.001+08:00

still, sincerity

2011-04-09T01:28:00.000+08:00

no, i dont hate my family. they matter so much to me that their words are capable of hurting me so badly. i really need to talk about this. horrible week i had. satisfying people and upsetting myself.

i realised all i need are sincerity and concern. they're so rare nowadays. if anything ever happens to any one of you (*touchwood*), i will put everything aside without a thought. and i'm pretty sure they'll do the some for me. for some others, i dont know. they appear only because they need my help, never to listen or to help. when u are so desperate that you finally open your mouth to ask, they reject you or find some excuse to fend you off. i mean, it saddens me, really. on some nights, before i sleep, i think about too much of these and upset myself. seriously, it is so easy to tell whether someone is sincere or not. what happens when you fall sick and tell a friend about it? does he or she bother to ask more about your condition, or even give you a call/visit you immediately regardless of where he/she is at? of course, this question is applicable to people whom you have known for some time. quite sure others wouldnt go to that extent. actions speak louder than words. because you're still important to me, i forgive you. but please understand that you have unfortunately reached my threshold.

sth happy, i went for a ride on the flyer for the first time. it was awesome. with them around, i just cant ever stop smiling. i must have accumulated a great deal of good karma to have met you girls. i will accumulate more karma in my life now so that i can meet you again. and thanks pz (:

give and take, give and take.

2011-04-08T21:08:00.000+08:00

i hate my family. i hate this house. i hate everything.

2011-04-07T20:56:00.001+08:00

SURPRISINGLY GOOD

我的冷漠或许让你
黯然神伤
对你沉默或许让你
慌乱而不安
其实我的内心是你
看不见的慌
而你又悄悄把爱
植进我心房
心中残留太多的伤
模糊了爱的方向
你能否让我勇敢
让我再相信
再相信爱和情
不为曾经伤心
对爱一生怀疑
让我再相信
再相信爱和情
让我可以为你
再点亮我的心
我的冷漠或许让你
黯然神伤
对你沉默或许让你
慌乱而不安
其实我的内心是你
看不见的慌
而你又悄悄把爱
植进我心房
心中残留太多的伤
模糊了爱的方向
你能否让我勇敢
让我再相信
再相信爱和情
不为曾经伤心
对爱一生怀疑
让我再相信
再相信爱和情
让我可以为你
再点亮我的心
让我再相信
再相信爱和情
不为曾经伤心
对爱一生怀疑
让我再相信
再相信爱和情
让我可以为你
再点亮我的心

2011-04-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

interviews are beneficial because it they are sessions when u reflect upon what you have done. and the entire process though tiring, was fun. got to see people from different schools, of different styles. got to hear some cute accents too haha.

today's good i guess. couldnt really slp so woke up early in the morning. attempted to do the astro questions but just couldnt focus. brain dead. then it was astro quiz. it was a little tough to cheat but i guess the quiz wasnt too bad cause there were only 15 questions. mark was nice enough to drive me back to hall. then did some non-academic work and it started pouring! met Nigel who was cabbing out of school so he cabbed me to hall6 where i took bus C to school for iic interviews. so here i am, typing this post. seriously considering if i should just not do any work and just go to sleep. no energy, no mood, no brain juice.

i like busy days.

2011-04-06T02:03:00.000+08:00

A: why is it like that?

B: I don't know.

A: so how?

B: just leave it.

A: extremes are never good isn't it?

B: yes, but i'd rather be at the other extreme.

A: then what do you do now?

B: i cry under my blanket at night.

2011-04-04T01:52:00.000+08:00

i hope my grandma recovers soon. so that she can eat proper food. that needle's not doing her any good. astro mcqs are no joke. need to study. but first, need to print the imbal mcqs. need to become god-like!

2011-04-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

can you believe it? i still look forward to his smses. his smses still make me smile. seeing his name on my phone screen makes me happy :D

senseless thoughts can make sense

2011-03-29T21:00:00.000+08:00

when there's room for comparison, the grass becomes greener on the other side. life really is complicated. and i do think that happiness is such a complex issue. perhaps, most likely, is that we are not each others' priorities. we think of each other only after we have satisfied most of the people out there. i hate it when i impose obligations on other people. u know the thing about putting yourself in others' shoes? when this is done obsessively, one forgets about satisfying oneself. then, it becomes one being very selfish. cause it becomes that one's thoughts are imposed upon others, because one thinks that is what they think. it becomes more of one's guesses, rather than what they really want. then again, the problem with asking them what they feel is that sometimes, it's so difficult to determine whether or not the thought/answer/whatever is an honest one. what if they are lying because they want the best for you? but then again, you dont want to inconvenience them! i know this is a convoluted post. can understand this post, i'll give you a treat.

2011-03-26T23:19:00.001+08:00

the night smells so familiar. weird as it may seems, it reminds me of my younger days. haha.

i know lol.

myescape

2011-03-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

only pic I TOOK during DYB :)

i spent 4 years at this place. my clique n i tried growing tomatoes under the tree :)

saw some interestin pics online!. decided to try this with my hair :D

on closer look :

NCF tmr! 915 at scape. yay i'm going to town! hope everything goes well for xunwen and his committee! hmm have to be extremely productive at night!

wonderday

2011-03-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

where is an auntie's fav hang-out? of course it's the supermarket!

guess what auntie Au saw today!

ORGANIC KIWI BERRY. cute TTM. really, so small, but taste like kiwi! although it was freaking expensive (a few for a few dollars -.-) but auntie au decided to buy it! taste not awesome, i prefer the real kiwi, but but but so cute, so must try! :D

surprisingly, the strawberries looked so pretty too! usually, they are always so gigantic that they look like they will burst anytime. today, all in cute strawberry size :) fantastic!

and and and the durian smelt SO GOOD. ALMOST bought. lucky didnt, dont want to risk falling sick!

these organic fruits sure made me happy and high haha.

that spongebob shirt was so AWESOME too! guessed it when i was in tourism class. i call this TELEPATHY! AMAZINGLY CUTE. although i expected it, he made my day with the shirt! thank you for making yourself gay! :) :) :)

2011-03-21T17:28:00.000+08:00

let's do it again! :D

2011-03-20T12:44:00.000+08:00

i was just browsing some profiles on fb. so much have changed. i miss the past, i really do! those days when i wld always appear at my grandma's place for the same old reason. feeling a little guilty cause i wasnt 100% sincere bout visiting her. it was more like i want to go to sk.

have been looking for a photo for the longest time. cant find it in fb, friendster, gmail, hotmail or yahoo mail! yes, friendster lol. that craze. sadly, fb took over!

2011-03-17T21:15:00.000+08:00

this has got to be the craziest holiday ever! many thanks to all who helped along the way. n i'm so proud of my outreach FLYers :)

i think i just became some student's idol or smth lol.

kk

were u in the IP  programme?

which sec school were u from?

????????

not from the IP batch

chung cheng high main

haha

study hard now!

b  consistent

u'll do well!

wa u so smart

no wonder got a bf

handsome

one

i'll try to be as smart as u

and get a beautiful gf

LOL

true

so u're sayin my bf's handsome>

?

yup

is he ur bf?

haha

the one in the pic?

yup haha

y didnt u say i look good too!

lol

u must secure him

oooh

u look good too

lol i will secure him lol

alot of girl sure go after him

boys will go after u tooo

hahaha i'll let him know someone praised him!

9:11pm

eh wats ur study plan ar?

how come u so smart

HAHAHA. :D

2011-03-13T10:40:00.000+08:00

weeping sky. it's a sign.

2011-03-11T22:58:00.000+08:00

to make you happy, to upset myself

IDONTLIKEYOU!

2011-03-11T01:43:00.000+08:00

worse employer to have: one who thinks he/she is way smarter than you. and one who speaks to you like you're a complete idiot.

GOLAH

2011-03-02T21:18:00.000+08:00

i'm stuffing myself with so much food i think i may gain 3-4kg this week. cant be bothered.

putyourselfinhisshoes

2011-02-28T23:52:00.000+08:00

I FEEL LIKE A FREE BIRD :D

on the way back home today, roy said something which was very interesting.

"looking at the modules that we're currently taking, i don't know why we complained so much when we were in year 1"

true enough. in fact, i'm a little ashamed of myself for doing so badly! school just gets tougher. so we simply have to learn to suck it up. easier said than done though.

send an email to the exco asking for manpower today. i was either half-awake or half-awake. i forwarded that mail out without removing the thread where i was bitching to chinleng about how *** treats me like a slave at times. tried to recall the email. but sadly, i was using my gmail account. therefore, can only recall within 10sec after you clicked 'sent'. so yup, i'm sure some negative perceptions are formed ever since the bang-the-table incident. really should have kept my cool. poor example.

back to 213! have got like 8 articles to go through and 202 process costing to look at before i call it a day! jiayou everyone! :)

2011-02-23T23:10:00.000+08:00

2011-02-16T23:37:00.001+08:00

i was just wondering. it's good to be busy. so then, we'll be forced to prioritize.

some people excel when they are really busy.

2011-02-16T00:55:00.001+08:00

the time reads 12:55 am. just done with rehearsing and now i'm going to start on my accounting tutorial. 830 class tmr. give and take, give and take, give and take.

2011-02-11T01:07:00.000+08:00

because i know it matters to you, i dont want to say it. by saying it, thoughts will be transformed into reality that i cannot accept. who knows what happened to me when i was a little girl? the fact remains that enough is never enough.

2011-02-07T23:13:00.000+08:00

11:13pm
eva said that the groups for ab213 had been formed. we're going to class tmr, hoping against hope that we can be in the same group!!!

met my yep group just now :) i must say, they are people who are so sincere about things they say so i enjoy being around them :) a rare group of people, i must say. if given an opportunity, try to go for a yep trip. chances are, you'll met wonderful people and have the trip of your life :)

had an outreach meeting just now too. surprisingly, agenda was covered in 45minutes. kudos to everyone! believe in this, go to a meeting smiling, looking enthusiastic, no matter how tired or how much you dread the meeting. 'cause by looking cheerful and feeling positive, you'll affect the mood of those in the meeting. you inspire and make the meeting look shorter and more interesting than it actually is :)

have got a presentation tmr. havent done my tutorials too. au revoir!

merci beaucoup!

know how horrible and 'energy-zapping' loneliness can be, try to not leave people out. you're doing others and yourself a major favour!

2011-02-07T00:00:00.001+08:00

my roomie has removed her slippers from the room. i think she's never coming back :( it's so lonely. maybe i shouldnt have came back at all. hall's quiet, too quiet and it makes me feel sad.

sometimes, i tell myself to get over it, and just finish my readings or what-so-ever, but sorry, due to my horoscope, i cant do it. YES I'M BLAMING IT ON MY HOROSCOPE.

i'm so lonely i wanna go home now.

whenweemeet

2011-02-05T21:38:00.000+08:00

it's the third day of cny! but erm i'm not done with packing my room oops. so this is how messy it looks. this is 'before'. there will be 'after', for comparison! will have the curtains put up too. on a side note, my bed's prolly e neatest place in my room haha.

cny has been good this year! i met my tang sao and she's pregnant! 4 months alr! i am going to be an aunt SOON :) n my other cousin's getting married on 1/1/2012. wedding dinner, woohoo! CONGRATS :D

btw my cousin n my tang sao stay in jurong! so near to school! so, they said i was welcomed to visit anytime. n i am going to take their words seriously :) had a really good talk with them :)

gambled over the past few days too. won some $ :)

all photos r with my cousin! n i visit fb whenever i can, in anticipation of the photos hahaha. hmm shall give her some time! :)

for now, i refuse to think about school!

2011-02-05T17:48:00.000+08:00

i ALMOST had a chance to go for a fanta-licious dinner and free dinner with my dad. like i said, ALMOST.

2011-02-02T20:03:00.001+08:00

i LOVE chinese new year eve! steamboat at home,charcoal style okay. superb! have nt tried on the dress that i'll wear tmr haha. oh welllll

happy chinese new year! :D

2011-01-17T00:45:00.000+08:00

fear of rejection.
if i could rewind time, things would have been completely different.

2011-01-15T22:30:00.001+08:00

when i can, i will leave this house.

something new

2011-01-14T15:16:00.000+08:00

BOTTLE TREE PARK IS SUCH AN AWESOME PLACE!

prawning sounds like some old man hobby, but it's not! the satisfaction and joy felt when a prawn bites onto your bait and refuses to let go is omgosh SHIOK. haha. prawning is a healthy addiction! we were like little kids. honestly, people around us did not quite show their excitement. when they caught a prawn, couldnt quite feel their joy. they were like-it's just a prawn! but we were cheering hahaha. express your happiness man! :) the next aim is the bigggg pond for fishing. i will be in the photo gallery! :D

guppy-ing (is there such a word?) is definitely one thing not to be missed! when i was in my jc days, ada, joyce and i went guppy-ing there. it was sch hols so there were many kids around too. we were in cahoots and did mean things lol. but overall, it was veryyyyyy fun. can spend hours there, not a problem! a pity there werent kids around, just a few students in their school uniform (didnt know students so hip nowadays!).

town + movies + dinner is not the bese combi. going to the park will make you feel refreshed and happy :D

for those who are as erm timid (you know who you are!) as i am, season of the witches is not the show for you! bloody and disgusting scenes. it's only for the strong-hearted!

2011-01-11T23:00:00.000+08:00

happythings.tumblr.com

2011-01-10T23:28:00.000+08:00

it has been a moody day. was trying to make dinner less awkward. think hard work got paid well. great to see stanley after so long. he's still e good old stanley. he asked a few questions that set me thinking. not too sure if i'm really exxtremely envious of him 'cause i guess i have my own passion too just that they're not as strong?

no more yes-lady.

i want that too!

2011-01-07T01:23:00.000+08:00

I CONFUSE MYSELF! HELPPPP. AND THE THING ABOUT UNDER PROMISING, OVER DELIVERING, THIS SHALL BE ONE OF MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS. I'M WRITING THIS WITH MY PHONE. NO IDEA WHY EVERYTHING'S IN CAP! CANT CHANGE! HAHA. GOOD NIGHT!

2011-01-04T23:16:00.001+08:00

princess cake is not very princessy haha.
had great fun with pz at ikea today! but so tired now. good night

2011-01-01T22:33:00.000+08:00

just browsed through some pics from 2009. we look completely different now!

2010-12-29T15:17:00.000+08:00

"Have I told you about the tension of opposites?" he says.
The tension of opposites?
"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.
"A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."
Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.
"A wrestling match." He laughs. "Yes, you could describe life that way."
So which side wins, I ask?
"Which side wins?"
He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.
"Love wins. Love always wins."

tuesdays with Morrie.

There are grey clouds in the sky, but the sky is still relatively clear. And there's this cool breeze (colddd) too. The funny thing's it doesnt look like it will rain. A good day to be out cycling!
The stove's just been changed and now everyone's worried the installation work's sub-standard 'cause there's this weird smell when my mum turned on the stove just now. but i cant seem to be bothered haha.
i want to go out! :( one week gone, three weeks more to the start of a new semester. and there're things undone! *I PANIC*

2010-12-28T00:05:00.001+08:00

i'm going to cry like shit

2010-12-26T23:01:00.000+08:00

happy boxing day :)

christmas was so fantastic, with people i love.

met up with mr cheang (like arh! omgosh! i'm going out with him! without booking a slot with his secretary! haha). he was so gentleman-ly that day. offered to meet me at toapayoh.
we went to catch a movie, it wasnt too bad and yes, better than eat pray love haha. then, we went to put my threshold for alcohol to a test. once again, results very much expected. you know, it felt so care-free. we just held hands and walked down the street, squeezing through the crowd, queueing for food. didnt have to rush back home/hall to mug. we didnt exactly planned to go here or there or anywhere. just accepted what ever suggestions that came along the way. n i quite like heels haha.
i love it. thank you for your friday :)
stay-over at ada's house was hmm. cant quite find a word to describe it haha. reached there a little late. pz n yl were there alr. that yan went overseas again. joyce didnt manage to persuade her mum. so it was just the four of us. so reached, changed into tshirt, fbts n auntie hairstyle. then it was macs yum yum. e rest got 20pcs nuggets n i got myself mcspicy haha.
pz brought 500days of summer dvd. hmm it wasnt very well-received and she said she would never recommend movies again haha. i still vaguely rmb the movie, becoming jane. fell asleep abt 3min into e movie hahaha.
so after that show and gift-exchange, it was drinking session. i fell asleep! yl fell asleep not long after. then it was down to ada n pz. think they slept at 5. power!
the next morning, woke up, had soya bean milk (thank you auntie! :) ) and headed home. bathed, changed then went out again! to meet the same ppl haha. joyce wanted me to be her friend. she saw a backpack at num. sgd129. but there was some crazy offer and the bag was selling, one for one! but design wise, kiddyyyy! haha. so had to say no.
then BUFFET TIMEEEEE. we didnt gorge ourselves with food haha.
drinking session again! i never learn. the rest held their liquor well. great music with great drinkks with great company. when we got out, it was pouring. three under one umbrella haha. reminded me of what happened in sec2 :)

2010-12-24T01:32:00.001+08:00

i knew those were very mean words, but i still said them in front of so many people. just couldnt be bothered. hai. time to take it easy!

2010-12-23T17:14:00.001+08:00

awesome thurday night, HERE I COMEEEE

2010-12-21T21:02:00.000+08:00

i worry when u do that, cause it feels like you wont have time after that. hmm.
L I B E R A T I O N

2010-12-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

i'm upset :( e show has not been uploaded yet boo. i'll try again later!
and i cant seem to focus. my mind wanders aroundddddd. i bought sth online! yay but honestly, i think i shld stop spending. have been spending over my budget.

christmas next week! drinking session at ada's place! i am not exactly looking forward ( though i QUITE like drinking). 'cause very bad pz has plans to make me DRUNK so she can make me TALK. u think so easy is it?! my threshold has increased alr. 2.5 cans of beer, no problem lah! haha. but actually, whether anyone drinks or not, it doesnt matter. what matters e most is for all of us to be happy :)

2010-12-18T23:47:00.001+08:00

freaked out by the questions -.-

2010-12-14T17:49:00.000+08:00

memorising is still tough.
but i'm glad i touched it last week. at least when there's still recollection when i read the notes. sense of relief, though there's still A LOT to finish by tonight so that i can touch taxes tmr. have to stay positive, if not nothing will go in.
i feel like puking alr. side effect of memorising too much.

now

2010-12-11T23:15:00.001+08:00

good bye

LUCK

2010-12-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

omg the planes are giving me a headache. how many planes do i need? how many crew teams do i have to employ? sorry, i have no idea. can only give you my 2 cents worth(maybe they are not even worth 2cents). capacity planning is -O.O-
Quoting joyce:
1) look at the questions in the paper
2) goes, hmm?
3) flips back to the first page to make sure it is for the correct mod
4) goes back to the questions, and SIGHHHH

i see planes flying around me. dont crash!

2010-12-10T01:22:00.000+08:00

i dislike myself at this point in time.

i actually left the other half of my china notes in hall (cause i cant find them at home).

so, i have to go back to hall to get them like later since it's 1:23am.

and it's not like i stay near sch.

and i dont really want to stay in hall to study till next friday.

my room is all condusive with my notes packed (thrown around the floor but i still know where to find them).

actually, alternatively, i can choose to not study until next mon, which is a major risk. nono. guess i'll be 16bucks poorer later. i hate it, absolutely.

need to do smth about my poor memory.

have been complaining a lot. hmm.

be contented be contented be contented! :)

2010-12-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

seniors' cheat sheets are 0.0
i am totally amazed by them. wondered how long it took them to prepare it! i'm guessing my eyes will be so tired after the tax paper. better wear glasses. imagine, i think an ant can cover a few letters with it's body!
okay, sudden realisation. there's a review class tmr!!!!! i forgot. need to finish papers, 2papers. holy crap :(

original plan to sleep at 2am today, gone!

2010-12-06T23:44:00.000+08:00

absolutely cant wait! HE IS SO GOOD-LOOKING. 19th Dec is coming! cant wait cant wait cant wait! :D

enough of thinking about the show haha. tourism readings, here i come! :)

2010-12-05T02:52:00.000+08:00

theresa ends the day with a 1,000&1 things on her mind. she refuses to think about them now. sleeping is priority. journal entries and readings can wait.

3 years, and their relationship ended. it came as a major shock 'cause we never thought that day would ever come. honestly, i thought they were made for each other. though i dont know about what happened, but i'm hoping for a patch-up. there's still love, i presume.

2010-12-04T02:04:00.000+08:00

a day filled with joy and pain.
last accounting class, with photos taken with the prof and my fellow group mates. definitely a good end :) they have been very patient and understanding members. cldnt ask for more! :)
then met mark for lunch. he was in school waiting for sock to practise for ther spanish oral. bought from the chicken rice stall in canB, again haha. he was frantically looking for his dear dolphin and i was -.- haha. but he was nice enough to offer to help me with the tax book(gastric not too obedient). then it was tourism class! after knowing that thhere would be no quiz, i sneaked out of class. went back to hall to do a bit of final revision and to nap. fell asleep on eva's bed. it was so cold!
past few nights have been reeeeaaally colddd. walked around in socks in hall. ytd night was epic haha. soooo cold that i couldnt sleep! cldnt take e cold anymore, woke up and changed to long pants lol. even with socks, my toes were freezing cold. curled my self up and fell asleep eventually (thankfully)! told sock and xq and they said i was ridiculous hahaha. maybe i was sick. but too tired to even feel anything.
i got a shock of my life this morning. my roomie passed her bf the room key and he came in without her. woke up when i heard the door opening. he then sat down on the floor, facing me, and started using the laptol while i was 'sleeping' on my bed. i went err okay. pretended to be sleeping till he left the room. maybe not anything worth mentioning but it wasnt too comfortable then.
now, i'm home! somebody posted this on fb. lovely song. piano and guitar, just perfect.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qfxifg8i5H0

2010-12-03T00:39:00.000+08:00

rmbered. no 830 class tmr yay. happy.

the perfect formula to end it!

LOOK FORWARD

2010-12-02T01:48:00.000+08:00

sm, if u're reading this,
actually a real physical hug's much better than a virtual hug. next time just ask to meet up! :)

ada, i am SO looking forward to seeing you later and u know why haha. no double okay! :)

pz! swim on sat morning??

2010-11-30T20:00:00.001+08:00

like there's no more linkage!

2010-11-29T01:27:00.001+08:00

have a presentation later (technically since it's 1:27am and it's monday alr!).
was just preparing my script, 'cos cannot exceed 5mins. suddenly reminded of how marketing presentations used to be like, with roy, li ke, shumin and lixuan. started off being extremely nervous. gradually, did it without script. cos was so sick of writing them and depending on them during presentations. one thing was didnt have e time to write them as well lah haha. working late(like 3, 4 am) was the norm then. come to think of it, i did learn quite a lot from marketing presentations, not classes.
back to tourism text! so sad. cant even do one mcq question! no idea what they're talking about. need to START reading now.

UPS & downs

2010-11-28T02:35:00.001+08:00

and how do i defend for myself when everything's so clear. postponing ALL to after exams. it looks like i will have a lot to do during the break! :) cant wait, but a small part of me actually isnt too looking forward to it. many factors lah. there will be work to do and all hmm.
talking incoherently alr. think i'm tired haha.

2010-11-25T00:15:00.001+08:00

on track, a reason to be happy.
just give up lah, pathetically futile.
koi with a scoop of icecream, the thing to perfect a wednesday afternoon :)

i'm glad, in a way, that smu n nus r done with their papers. cos of that, i'll b swimming with pz this wk! in need of a workout, in need of her company! haven't seen her in a while (i think).

i am 85% sure of what i want to do. chang tong bu ru duan tong :)

because?

2010-11-23T19:47:00.000+08:00

when i look at those photos, i feel sooooo super duper envious. so sweet! why dont they happen to me? haha. *pats myself on the back and say, stop thinking about it theresa.

2010-11-22T21:38:00.000+08:00

wrote a note to my roomie and she MOPPED THE ROOM. it is sooooo clean now. this is so making me happy :)
*hug* :)

CONTENTMENT

2010-11-21T23:56:00.000+08:00

our brainchild is growing!
it's such an awesome feeling. finally, it's progressing, i can even picture it happening already. have to constanly remind myself that consistency is so important.
indeed, so pleasant :)

school tmr! i've just decided to be guai and go for class (though i have this feeling that i may just not turn up tmr haha). meeting my fellow subcommers from FE outreach tmr. definitely looking forward to the meeting. about time we do a short sum-up before we break for exams. guess the meeting will end at 8plus. mum wants me to go home, but think i'll just stay in hall (already trying to be home as much as possible for the past few weeks). i'll call home! then tuesday's freeee, mugging's the only thing on the list(got so much to cover :( ). meeting sinyee and xiaoying for lunch. YAY. havent seen them in a while! :)
it's going to be a busy, but happy week i hope :)

p.s.withholding tax's so confusing. omgosh SOS.

2010-11-21T01:15:00.000+08:00

interesting happenings take place all the time, if you spend time to take a good look around you. 2wks to 1st paper.
my father said something that was heart-wrenching. i had no idea how else to respond but to laugh with him. there're still things that are not within our control, isnt it?

sm, not too sure if u'll read this. want to thank you again, but stalking and smsing me. your sms was my saviour that day! it meant so much. i am amazed at how your smses always come at the right moments. glad to have known you. zhe bu shi ke tao hua :)

2010-11-19T00:43:00.001+08:00

it kind of suck. when it feels like nobody cares. what a sickening world.

2010-11-17T13:57:00.000+08:00

that song fills me head,
and it reminds me of you,

2010-11-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

a fruitful day! :)
but very tired now. didnt manage to sleep well last night cause had too much things on my mind. attempted to nap at 1030, for one hr but failed cause e moment i laid down in bed, phone calls started coming in. haha. so here i am, typing this post, going back to books after i'm done here.

CHANGE MY PW!!!

contemplate

2010-11-15T01:31:00.000+08:00

it isn't as bad as before, maybe it's dying off alr. i guess it's about time to do the usuals. now?